Ink& Memories

SV

2012-02-15T04:06:00.000-08:00

(secret valentine)

This year's valentines was actually not that bad. I spent the midnight with B and Danielle (oh yea, n Do). Classes were alright since mostly everyone didn't have a valentine (or a date to OB).

I received a heart+sword balloon from a secret valentine. I didn't know who sent it, no one did but it felt nice. Although most of the time, I was afraid the whole thing will blow up in my face. I never received this kind of thing before since all my Penang friends are gorgeous n nice n everything, so no one realizes I'm actually there :( But today was different, even if it was a prank, it was a good one.

Thank you, SV! :)

1. Weird things you do when you’re alone.

2012-02-12T09:05:00.000-08:00

I'm rarely alone alone since I now live in a house, where I normally chill outside, with 5 people. This post should be very easy if I were a guy. It would be 'fap, fap, fap' in BIG BOLD letters. But I'm not a guy, and that's not weird. In fact, that's very common. I never consider the things I do weird but I don't think I'm weird, so I may be wrong. Anyhow..

1. Cracked.com

What's weird? I actually do not quite like what's on em. Most of the shit are written with prejudice. The titles are the worst. They either give away the whole article too damn fast or it's plain bullshit. But still, I read away. It's interesting to realise that ants can hardly die or that you can never kill rats, ever. No, you can't even poison the shit out of them. It's also fun to read how fucked up Disney movies are and Hollywood should really stick to reality facts. Look at all those bullshit they've been showing.

2. Hair

What's weird? I actually look for spilt-ends. Doesn't it bug you when you spot this short gold thing at the end of your hair? No, you can't tear it because it'll get worse. No, you can't ignore it. It's fucking gold on your hair. And before you know it, you see it everywhere in your hair. So, I would be in the zone, holding my scissors, chopping off those annoying spoilt hair. No, I don't think I only do it when I'm alone. Sometimes, even in class or exams. Fun times...

3. Edison Chen

What's weird? I imagine the sex. HAH, you wish. That's sick. I'm not disgusting.

Actually, I don't do much weird things when I'm alone. I'm perfectly normal

This is going to be one shitty month.

2012-02-12T08:48:00.000-08:00

So I only blog either when I'm too bored or too annoyed.

Write a blog entry, one per day for 30 days on the following subjects:

~~1. Weird things you do when you’re alone.~~
2. How have you changed in the past 2 years?
3. What kind of person attracts you.
4. What you wear to bed.
5. 5 things that irritate you about the opposite sex/same sex.
6. The person you like and why you like them.
7. Your opinion on cheating on people.
8. Something you’re currently worrying about.
9. Your last kiss.
10. Your views on drugs and alcohol.
11. Your currently relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
12. Things you want to say to an ex.
13. A date you would love to go on.
14. Something disgusting you do.
15. The best things to happen to you this week.
16. 3 things you are proud of about your personality.
17. Things that make you scared.
18. Disrespecting parents.
19. Something that never fails to make you feel better.
20. The last argument you had.
21. Something you can’t seem to get over.
22. 10 things about you people don’t really expect.
23. Something you always think “what if…” about
24. Things you want to say to 5 different people.
25. 10 ways to win your heart.
26. Your religious beliefs.
27. Talk about your siblings.
28. The month you were happiest this year why.
29. A picture of yourself.
30. What changed this month and what you hope will happen next month.

Where'd You Go?

2012-02-11T03:40:00.000-08:00

After the whole blogging incident with Amber (which I am still very sorry about since everything started with my immaturity), I've started cursing at 'anonymous'. But now, I've decided not to anymore. Because my rants are no longer about how bitchy a person is, or how stupid they are.

It's going to be how their bitchiness or stupidity affects me.

Things I Learnt from Penang

2012-02-09T04:59:00.000-08:00

3/2-6/2

1. Always wear the most comfortable clothing you can find in your wardrobe (in my case, it's just a suitcase). Do not care whether it's not slutty or it makes you look like a total nun. That was what I did, I wore a long long-sleeve dress to 7aste. Despite all the remarks I've got, I was able to enjoy the night without pulling my skirt down, worrying that my butt was showing or random guys thinking I was a prostitute. Here's a picture of me, cailing and the 'virgin dress'.

2. Always make sure it's at least 1 o'clock before hitting the clubs or at least, make sure you're at least 70% towards drunkivity. Nic& I decided to leave 32 Mansion right after it started raining. So it's about 45 minutes after getting into 7aste. Thinking anywhere would be better than a hot, boring event, we were wrong. MOIS was empty as shit so we had to wait about an hour? before people started coming. But the whole night was boring since I had nothing to drink.

Night 01- Alcohol Level: 0

3. Do not attempt in inviting people to shisha/ pos burger. They go clubbing in the end.

4. Always chill outside as long as possible before heading into clubs. Make sure you at least have 7 shots. Make sure you are laughing at random shit. Make sure you do not allow yourself to be bored in the club, two nights in a row.

Night 02- Alcohol Level: 0

5. Remember to take more pictures with the people who make you laugh. Even if it's on a Sunday night and everyone's busy smoking beside the car while you can't stand the smoke. Stop lying on the floor while you can gamble, you won 8 dollars instead of losing as usual. Always bet higher when Nikki's the base, she loses all the time. Quit when it's Cherly Lynn's turn, that crazy girl won 200. Remember to get the tips from Bryan, you massaged him and gave him luck (to lose, anyway).

6. Never oversleep. Don't sleep before a dinner. Don't trust Cai Ling when she says take your time. You'll end up attending half-way during the meal.

7. Never have a fever, take panadol then go drinking. Even if it was your last night out. Because after a few drinks, the rest is history. Medication and everything else take over. You can't remember. You only speak, speak, speak, speak, speak, speak, speak, speak...

8. Never be sad over the fact that you have no friends in KL. The people in Penang are enough, even though there aren't many, at least they're real.

When the pen loses ink

2012-02-05T01:16:00.000-08:00

Use a keyboard.

Anyway, I've started writing again. Rusty as hell. So yea, here's to a sucky draft.

Usuallyin life, we get pissed by the smallest things such as the way an old ladyscolds her grandchild in public or a disgusting habit of a young girl spitting bythe side of the road. It was not like we had something to do with it, or somelittle way of us being able to stop it. We see it, we rant a little and moveon, leaving the grunts behind, along with the others. It’s not going to get anybetter and it’s going get worse by day. It’s a simple theory I adapted from thesong, ‘Rain’ by Bishop Allen.

On the5^th of February 2012, there was one thing in particular that Icouldn’t stop pointing the middle finger at. How could you call him a man whenthe size of his dick is no longer or larger than the finger?Maybe he was good-looking or the fact that he was the son of a businesswomenwho was just as powerful as she could be. Being rich was something hard forgirls to resist, especially when he was charming, young and Eurasian, somethingI still have no idea why that’s a plus for Asians. So there he was, dancingshamelessly in the club, holding his pathetic silver cup while hugging someother girl who I assumed to be his next victim. The fact that he was RooneyPeters, I took another tequila shot as a sign of despise.

Thereare always two sides to a story which includes two groups of people who are onopposite sides.

I'm stuck. So yea, this should be part of 'Golden Days'.

Vday

2012-02-02T06:08:00.000-08:00

The season starts now. Who are you giving the card to this year?

Kuala Lumpur.

2012-02-01T07:06:00.000-08:00

It has been officially a month. I moved here on the 1st, it's now the 1st. And today, was the first day I went out with my college friends. Picnic in Lake Gardens. It all started when we found out there was a holiday on a surprising Wednesday. I kept bugging everyone to go out. So the plan was laser tag. Jonathan thought it was lame so we decided to change it to paintball. The plan was unsuccessful since it was too far for some people and too dangerous for Lisa& I. Out of the blue, I thought of going for a picnic. When Lisa came out with the venue, we started going around inviting people. I think the guest list was everyone we met on Tuesday (yea, we planned it all out 12 that day). People said they could come, then they couldn't. Then, yea, it became the 7 of us having satays in a pondok without drinks. It was two and a half hours of fun.

Clement, Faheem, Andrew, Shanice, Lisa& I. Jonathan was taking the picture.

The Other Side of the Leaf

2012-01-30T08:13:00.000-08:00

As much as it's easy moving on (in my case anyway), it seems that everything you try to do bring you back and forth.

So much for orientation camp, I met so many nice people. Other than that, it was alright. Games that made me scream, the hike that almost took my life (but great team mates managed to keep me from falling) and the 20 bedded room for just 6 of us.

I think the best part was still Lisa, Celine& I flipping John's boat.

College should be fun.

Reunion.

2012-01-23T08:36:00.000-08:00

I spent 90 minutes last night skyping my other bestfriend, Ron. It's been fun. Then, I lost my money to my relatives, as usual. But common, it's chinese new year, we take their money, we lose our money. Fair enough.

Today was alright. As much as I love 'in-between', I hate the fact that my 10 year old cousin could win 200 dollars while I count in misery. Bullshit, I even bought red underwear, red shirt and all shit.

So here's to an update, the year of the dragon. May the fire not be anger.

Horoscope Crap.

2012-01-22T07:36:00.000-08:00

The massive Ash Tree is both wide and tall. Therefore its symbolism is power and magnitude. Naturally, then, Ash Tree people are larger than life. They are very self-assured and overconfident, but this happens only because the people around them keep bragging about their exceptional qualities.

The people of this sign have everything going for them including looks, energy, and inner grace. However, they are hard to deal with. There are not that many people who can put up with Ash Trees' high demands and self-absorption. Ash Tree people believe that they are the only ones worth getting pampered. They believe that it is only their opinion that matters and they should always have the final word.

Ash Trees know what they want in life, and once they have a goal they become unstoppable. On the other hand, there is nothing in this world that can make these people do something they don't want. Their path to success is short and very straightforward. Ash Trees have enough energy to overcome nearly every obstacle and achieve almost the impossible.

Although Ash Tree people can be quite selfish, they are not greedy. They would share everything they have, but in return, they will not be shy about taking away whatever they need.

People of this sign are needy and demanding, which doesn't make them the most desirable partner. Despite this, Ash Trees are usually quite happy in marriage. They will certainly weigh all of the pros and cons before they say 'I do'. People born under this sign could even consider a marriage of convenience. Even if they chose to neglect love, they will always remain faithful, as they prefer to cherish what they already have.

When it comes to romantic relationships, Ash Trees people almost never make fatal mistaakes. They know how to charm their partner. The people of this sign show only their best qualities, keeping their dark side under cover.

Tradition.

2012-01-21T23:09:00.000-08:00

According to the Chinese culture, we celebrate 15 days of Chinese New Year. From then, it has been commercialized to have new clothes, five thousand tins of awesome cookies and red packets.

Ever since I was young, I looked forward to leave Penang and gather with my relatives. As all of us grew, we moved on. I never much get excited when I was packing to KL, it was probably because everything changed. The only thing that kept us all together was gambling. Which is the reason why I bought everything red this year. Need to change the habit of losing all my money.

This year, I did not need to overcome my boredom during the lame 4 hours car ride. Instead, I am now rotting here. Which is not that great anyway. I have no friends to hang out with, the Penang clan live so far away from me and some part of me wished everything was different.

The only interesting thing that happened this week is the email that I received from my very MIA bestfriend.

Go figure.

So here I am. Typing away the nonsense while the others enjoy their time.

The see-saw is at zero velocity. The bottom stinks.

Couple of Hours a Day.

2012-01-19T03:57:00.000-08:00

I seriously need to get a life here. Maybe I was never the biggest party girl who attends all the events, drink until I get wasted or even throw a great drinking feast for the gang. For the least, I had a group of people who I call whenever I'm bored and we'll all chill at the nearest place that was 5 minutes away.

I'm supposed to meet up with B today but I had no car, no license nor a simple way. So, here I am, updating my blog.

&& I realised that I should make this year count. 2008 was writing, 2009 was photography, 2010 was photoshop while last year was filming. I should learn how to study.

I guess it's even harder than for me to look pretty. Honestly, I think I look like an ant. Something you won't stare at, just step on.

It's not a religion. It's a relationship.

2012-01-17T01:05:00.000-08:00

I'm a catholic.

I had my doubts from people being people so for three years, I headed to the other side, protestant. I know, it's pretty much sensitive about everything I'm about to say but I'm studying in a Methodist College, I need to say.

It's nice that people from MCKL don't judge you as a person going to hell when you tell them you're a catholic. They just say, it's no biggie, join them in CF! Some don't even know much of the difference, they just hear me rant about the politics I witnessed and 'ohhh' politely.

I always hated the way I left church. I always hated how I turned from God was because of the people who believed in him. Sad to say, I was ashamed of the people wearing the cross so proudly yet they were fucking around like big buttocks of assholes. Myself included.

So, here's to an apology. To those protestants I've offended just because you don't have 'ash wednesday' or 'mass' or 'holy communion.' As my new friend, John Gui would say, "It's not about the religion. It's a relationship."

I'm sorry. I will never comment on your beliefs ever again as there are so many decent protestants in KL.

Calculating.

2012-01-08T10:12:00.000-08:00

I calculated the time we spent together. I calculated the years of memories we had. I calculated the amount of rumours about you that I came across which I chose to defend you. Truth is, maths bailed on me.

I refused to believe that other than a naturally-born-beautiful whore, you were a self-centered bitch who actually manipulate people to see the goodness in you and offer help.

I have been hearing the nasty things you say about a certain person, but when it came to the time where it benefited you, you went on running towards them. You call that a forgiving heart, I call that bullshit.

I let it pass. I defend you when it comes to standing on the fence. Luckily for you, the people around you are also the way you are. They like you, because they don't see pass you. As for me, I've been through it.

Thankfully, I left. I left you sick pathetic people with nothing but a lifeless game of everlasting. True, I smile. True, you smile. But whenever I turn my back, I hear the whisper.

So, I tell myself. I've grown out of the highschool games.

There is one with the name.
There is one with the popularity.
There is one with the beauty.
There is one with the trust.

I rolled the dice. It's my turn for the next move.

(Right-click to exit.)

Desperate Need Of Change.

2012-01-07T23:11:00.001-08:00

Some people, should have.

First, you be nice.

2012-01-03T03:56:00.000-08:00

Happy new year!

Against all odds, I went back to square one. I'm currently in KL, attending MCKL's Jan batch of A-levels. Lucky for me, I met a couple of nice people from today's orientation.

Back to business.

Invisibility

2011-12-05T08:15:00.001-08:00

I don't know, but maybe in the crowd I'm in don't see the things I'm aware of. People do not see how one manipulates the other over or they tend to overlook the obvious flaws.

Today, I've seen it all.

I don't have to look at the mirror, yet I see the uglier version of me. A less fashionable wannabe who has the shallowest mind to ever think to imitate me. I've look past it last year as it was only a state of mind. This time, it has conquered the outer world.

I hate the line, "Why you copy me." It takes me back to primary school, which I so happily left 5 years ago. I graduated from high school officially twenty hours ago. So, back off bitch.

It's been a while since I actually ranted on my blog. Just hoping that the views are not from the familiar.

General update: I've decided to defer my acceptance to MCKL. I don't want to cramp in my grandparents' with my sister and my mother where I could not fit all my collection of novels. I won't be able to drive. Plus, I've been sent to Langkawi's national service. It's the 5 against the world then.

Welcome To The Club

2011-11-27T06:29:00.001-08:00

So I'll no longer be able to sing 'Sixteen going on seventeen' any longer. Doesn't make me any more mature, just that this time, I wish that I would be a little more nicer.

I should.

Which clearly shows me that my brother and khang& pearl still loves me :D
Thank you to the people who showed up at my house against my wishes. Loads of grumpy loves even though I was deeply sleepy. Poor things.

It's a blessing, really, that God actually shows me who my true friends are on my birthday. The number has increased, thankfully, this year, but there are few who actually lasted.

It's the legal year that counts.

Those 18 things to do on my 18th birthday.

With honour, Daniel will start continued by Cai Ling, Shu Yao and Danielle.

<3 <3 <3

Super Pointless Message

2011-11-12T23:27:00.001-08:00

It's funny, when you try.

So the 'major' examinations starts tomorrow, in less than 24 hours. So the aim is 10 A- and above, but by looking at what I've studied, it's probably only 6 A-s and above.

So it's settled, so I lost my will to study. It's pointless seeing everything, what's there for? A new car? Bullshit.

Exam spirit always activate the little busy hands of yours. I've been itching to write but I refused to give in. Instead, I gave into laziness. So here I am, half-tumblring and half-blogging.

Coolness.
So I'll be seeing you around, I guess.

2012

2011-11-02T19:54:00.000-07:00

Dum dum dummmmmmmmmmm

I've got accepted into the college I wanted! Whee. So that's (horrible) A-levels then psychology then phd :D
So cross fingers when I say I will study hard next year so I can get into NSW/ JCU/ UON either one would be fab after A-Levels.

Fab life, this month.
Jolene got into Taylors with scholarship.
Felicia got into Canning wiith scholarship.
Genia would probably get a scholarship anywhere she goes.

So life's just fab, ain' it.

I always thought people grew up, dreaming of something.
So when it comes to now, people ought to know what they want to do, not to do the opposite what many people do then you-know-what.
I just sickens me to just be so excited about my plans yet they are people who just does what's there for them.

Immunity

2011-10-23T21:00:00.000-07:00

You weep you cry,

As it pours down from your eyes,

To stop you try,

Sadly it's just one of the cries;

You can't scream they might hear you,

You don't frown they might know,

You won't tell they might send help to,

You will cry they might show;

They don't believe you are happy,

Yet your face don't show sad,

When you finally tell somebody,

They think the lie is just as bad;

Suddenly you realize just no one could help,

You just whack yourself and let yourself shut up,

You turn towards what's been waiting in the cloud,

Being immune, you're in luck.

"So Says the Golden Days"

2011-10-08T08:49:00.000-07:00

Perhaps it is now the 'college' season, everyone is applying everywhere. To them, anywhere is an opportunity for a better start of life even if it wasn't one of their choice. They check into a course when they see a familiar face, they find out everything about a place once they hear it's good and sometimes, they don't even deserve it. They don't disagree nor they do. So says the golden days.

It is about 30 over days before SPM and if I were to sit for the examination tomorrow, 80% I would fail for my standard. I should have covered every subject by now, I most probably should stay home all day or spend most of my time in the library but I did not. I should go offline now, chuck myself into bed and wake up at four when the mind is fresh to study. But I'm not going to. Failure or not. It does not matter much. So says the golden days.

Jokes Aside.

2011-09-06T07:57:00.000-07:00

But it's hard to tell, isn't it?

Quick update before I continue brewing my potion!
Pottermore has been amazing. although I'm sorted into Ravenclaw, I still believe I have Slytherin in me.
So, trials is coming. Hah! So it's 10 As to college, 9 As to failure and 8 As to Mac Book! Hah!

More on Bio...

HAPPIDOOODEE

2011-07-29T01:53:00.000-07:00

I am happy! I just read my first fan mail. Might be a prank& I don't know what to reply. I hate being stupid& fall into traps.

If you're real, you will read this.

If you're fake, stop it.

It's mean.

But you made my day!

So yay you!

Nick& Norah.

2011-07-21T01:22:00.000-07:00

My Ipad& Ipod.

I can't help but feel guilty. I have an issue. I must be annoyed with at least one human being at every second. Now& counting, I currently have 6 people who I see everyday on my last nerve.

Hah. Great life you say?

I hate people who only gets annoyed with you when you're annoyed with them.
I hate people who always think they must own the spotlight to be liked.
I hate people who is as annoying, at the same time a bitch.
I hate people who can never shut up at the right moments.
I hate people who happens to be a slut.
I hate people who tells me who I can and cannot hate.

Shut up, bitch. You're living in my world, &you've got everything to lose.

Though, I miss being annoyed. At this right moment, when I have my laptop, not in school or halfway crapping, it's finally well placed in a time when I could write. Rant, whatever baby!

Oh, I need more self-control.

Save money.
Stop eating.
Suck up.

ALL WAS WELL.

2011-07-15T09:37:00.000-07:00

Bloody, they should have added this as the ending. Or as Regina said, awesome tumblrians& the whole world would rather have this as the last few words: Mischief managed

That didn't happen, did it.

I wanted to write a review but I've been through IMDB and they've been mentioning every single disappointment of ours.

Overall:7/ 10

Despite the awesome sound effects, great graphics& awesome portrayals by Helena Bonham Carter, Alan Rickman and Matthew Lewis, they had to ruin it for us just like that.
With Voldemort's bloody death.

He died in vain.
He died in vain.
He died in vain.

Voldemort did not tear his soul into so many pieces so he could burst into confetti.
You do not insult him by making his dead into a joke.

You do not make him die in vain!

Damn it, David Yates, damn you.
Why do you always have to ruin your reputation by missing the awesome plots. We don't care if the movie is 5 hours long, as long as you get the awesome scenes from the book into the movie, not cutting the little parts that we look forward to.

For instance, Fred's death was so short& sad. Pathetic sad. Awful.
Don't get me started on Neville slaying the snake. How dare Hermione take this moment of glory away from him!
Oh, this issue is trending. The elderly wand. Harry, yes, you killed Voldemort, you don't have to break it. Sometimes, Yates, if your ideas are not better than the book, don't change it!

Good things though, I loved the lines! They used so many awesome quotes from the book! My favorite, Molly saying, "Not my daughter, you bitch!" Just like the book! As perfect as I imagined!
I was hoping for the entire epilogue to be filmed though, I know it wouldn't happen but I thought they would.

Snape's memories could have been longer. He has always been my favorite!

So there it is, if it wasn't for you Yates.
If it wasn't for you.

I'm going to sulk until I step into Wizarding World of Harry Potter.

The Next Path

2011-07-11T02:56:00.000-07:00

would definitely be college.

I hate that I have doubts. I've been planning to leave all my high school years, and now, I have no idea what to do.
Everyone keeps telling me, since 07, that I will change my ambition.
I've always wanted to be a psychologist.
Still do.

I want to be a journalist. Write& make a difference. Have a little column in The New Yorker or maybe, an editor of a magazine. I just want to write, read and write again.

I could even be a film journalist. I don't know the basic skills of filming but I love documentaries, the interviews and exploring one's life in just a minute. Inspiring.

I've always wanted to be a news anchor. I always admired the people working on or behind the scenes while CNN live is screening. How VJs get to walk around the room with just you& the big screen behind. Maybe just the daily news in 5, but the good 5.

Even in psychology, I have doubts. I want to motivate people. I want to help the sick. I want to do everything but I don't have the ability.

I hate that I'm not gifted in anything. So whatever I'm about the do, I know, I'm only average.

Oh, you've got to be kidding me.

2011-06-07T09:48:00.000-07:00

Natasha W.'s status, exactly whaat was going in my head.

This week have been a complete bitch.
I was being a complete bitch.
I enjoyed.

and glad because when tomorrow comes,
it's gonna be whole lot worse.

Slow Dancing In a Burning Room

2011-05-11T03:24:00.000-07:00

It's a public affair.

2011-05-06T02:30:00.000-07:00

It's funny how with so many John Mayer songs, even on shuffle, the first song that appears after play just happens to inspire, every single time.

It's busy out there, especially when you're the one paying for the cab.

Whatever To Be Told

2011-02-25T13:23:00.000-08:00

I can't sleep.

And Now I Want To Know Why...

2011-01-31T06:40:00.000-08:00

...my blog has more views than my column when I want it the other way around!

Isn't it just funny that I have about 100 hits per day here even though I rarely update. But I'm glad that my weekly audiences have been tuning in, increasingly almost every Sunday. More, more, more!

Let's just say I've been a little unfair. Treating something new better and neglected this poor baby I've had since ever, so I've decided that this blog will be updated more!

I hope both hits will be like before, and fairly same. It sucks being in between...

I have no idea what I'm typing...
....sleeping now...

...Z

Asses, just like they are.

2011-01-16T07:04:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, it's best for someone to jerk off. Why butt in when it's obvious there is no space left for the crap in you. Why ruin people's lives when obviously to get one, is to be someone better. And seriously, why isn't there anyone out there when you need one?

I don't want someone who just can't listen to me.

The Crowd

2011-01-13T07:54:00.000-08:00

...needs more comments!

Birthday Wishes to both that I love!

The Column.

2010-12-28T07:16:00.000-08:00

I've decided that sooner in my life, I will be a columnist. Someday, somewhere.

Not that I think I have nice things to write, but I enjoy writing without doubts. I like the wide space for my imagination/ facts to be read. So here it is. I will write a column a week with a deadline by Sunday.

Tadahhh!
The B Crowd

If I forget, then forget it.

Misread

2010-12-27T07:49:00.000-08:00

The Sixth Sense.

Tested my skill on Facebook, at realized I wasn't that bad after all.

The Meaning of Art

2010-12-19T22:12:00.000-08:00

A dedication.

A piece of photography for being an epic shot is art. It's not just some lucky picture taken by an amature. Who cares if you're self-taught or even using the cheapest camera. A great shot is a piece of art. And goes as well as anything.

People often complain that my pictures don't show the model's beauty. Well, the main thing of the picture is not about making the model shine, it's how they blend into one. I can't please a model. I please the photograph.

Maybe, all I'm trying is to please me.

Posting up a picture on Facebook is not just a little wannabee in you trying to get as many 'likes' as possible. It's more than that.

There's a theme in every photoshoot and even how great your picture is, if you can't catch the theme, you're flowing way out.

Editing is a big part of it, too. It's not just editing the colour or putting effects. To design, is a will. And something that should be beared in mind.

Catarina, my latest piece.

A Little Fool...

2010-11-25T07:52:00.000-08:00

...For that little gold.

Anything will be worth it if you don't mind.

Anyone will be worth it if you don't hate.

Anywhere will be worth it if you don't cry.

The Common, The Casual.

2010-11-23T08:58:00.000-08:00

WHEN, in fact, at all times, you're mad at someone, you curse at the certain person.
It's all nature.

There's no one, other than Jesus, will forgive in just one breathe. You need some moment to let out the anger, to release the pain and to express your emotions.

No one shuts up.

So here's my rant:

FUCK YOU

cheers everybody!
to those i love to hate& hate to love!

Breakfast

2010-11-21T01:27:00.000-08:00

...@ Tiffany's.

Re-watching the classics.

Changes.
I always loved dramatic changes that people tend to feel annoyed by. Don't you just love feeling excited with new things that was once old?

I love seeing dust turn into fireworks. Just like how this world is.

Exaggerated.

Drama. Karma. Bla.Bla.Bla.

It's all about everything that you own into everything that you want.
And all I need, is a change.

A change of body. A change of emotions. A change of drama.
It's all gettin' sick, eh?

Blimey, Yates, You Done It Again!

2010-11-17T08:54:00.000-08:00

David Yates, once again, a director of one of Harry Potter's movies.

This time, it was Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, part I.

(please do not read. SpoilerS ahead)

The movie started with Hermione, which was perfectly fine with me as I love her. She casted the memory charm and she soon disappeared from her parents' memories. Then Harry, which was so disappointing. I wanted to hear "I don't think you're a waste of space". Maybe Yates thought it would be a waste of time, but I always longed to hear that. See his expression. Yeah, good way to ruin it now when I read it in the future.

Then, it's all about the 7 Potters. I thought it was fine as it was. Loved Fred& George's jokes and Ron's sarcasm. It was funnier than what I had in mind.

When Harry and Hagrid left, I thought everything would be better. It would be more exciting for them to reach Tonk's parents'. Not really. Instead of casting 'expelliarmus', they realised it was him when Hedwig defended him. Ha.Ha.

Then, they reached the Burrow.

I thought 'I'm holy' was the best part of the movie.

I was glad that Ginny only appeared that little 10 seconds of Harry zipping her dress and that awkward kiss. And one of the twins coming into the kitchen, saying 'Hey'.

They quickly cut to the wedding, which made me pretty glad. I found the part draggy. They even missed Victor Krum! But they didn't bother to change Harry to a cousin, so I won't be bothered to describe the wedding other than saying it was boring.

Just, boring.

The rest of the movie was better okay until they forgot to insert more of Kreacher. I loved his story! The part where (they missed the entire part) Kreacher tells his anecdote and his relationship with Hermione.
Oh and even how Lupin told them that Tonks was pregnant!

The small 15 minutes with Umbridge was alright. 'You're lying. And you should not tell lies'. I found it hilarious though no one in the cinema reacted to it.

Everything was nice, actually. Their little adventure. It was a little draggy though, seeing their journey. Until, Ron burst.

The Harry and Hermione's dancing part was entertaining yet it ended horribly.

Godric Hollow was weird and the visit to Bathilda Bagshot was horrible. Nagini was so...WEIRD!!! Though, my mum enjoyed it.

So, the horcrux was destroyed by Ron as he saw Harry and Hermione kissing. Ha.Ha.

Oh, they also missed out the part where Ron tells them about how Voldemort's name is cursed. Nor even told them about the radio channel.

Then, they went to Lovegood. Which, was so...disappointing.

I loved the part of Malfoy's Manor where I got to see TOM FELTON! Though, again, awesome portrayal of Bellatrix Lestrange. Job well done, Helena Carter.

It was so sad when Dobby died. I smiled at his reply when Luna said 'Sir'.

The last part was pretty epic to me. Voldemort destroying the-wizard-he-was-afraid-of-most's grave then he took the wand, and casted into the sky.

Then, the lights went on.

I basically went through the movie. While watching, a part of me was excited, wanting to get caught out guard, yet, there was another part of me knowing what will happen next and know it will never be any good.

I know, everyone compares Twilight to Harry Potter. Saying that a Harry Potter movie is nowhere compared to Twilight. Lemmehearit? Bullshit.

Everyone watches Twilight to see Robert Pattinson glow under the sun and Taylor Lautner's hot body. Who would even care about Bella turning into a vampire or whether the Volturi will be able to kill the entire family or not. Though, when watching Harry Potter, they care about the effects, how well the director could film from the book to the screens, the actings and mostly, the plot.

In this movie, I liked the plot! I love how they stop at Bill& Fleur's cottage where poor Dobbie died. So now, they basically have 3 hours to film the Goblin's bank and THE EPIC WAR!!!

Not that the movie wasn't good, it was because I wanted to see more. There were several parts that I enjoyed from the book was cut. That, was pretty sad for me.

For all they care was the time slot. Which should not be a problem. I won't even care if the movie was 5 hours long. As long as I can see everything from the book.

Do it the best, ey?

This one, like most people say, was better than Half Blood Prince. Not that the previous plot was boring, but the previous movie but too many important memories about Voldemort that made people confused. Not that I did tho, I read the bloody book which everyone should be doing.

A Harry Potter Movie is made for Pot-Heads. The others should 'stupefy' themselves.

7/10 for the little funny scenes and the awesome effects. Good enough?
Though, the last will be a full 10/10, I hope?

Mad eye?

2010-11-14T01:15:00.000-08:00

Moody.

Gr8t. Holidays are coming. Gonna spend most of my time reading, (try) studying, watching movies, sleeping, sleeping, more sleeping...

I love holidays. It means more time to sleep, less job. Well, only during the end of the year. I could still remember the whole load of work I had to do this year during the holidays, cursing every single idiots who were too stupid to complete their work.

Morons.

Back to the basics. Birthday.

I hate birthdays when it comes to mine. I hate having myself to grow older...and older...and older.. Still last year, I was able to be the girl who was just '14'. Two weeks from now, 16.

16.

Fuck sixteen. Seriously. One more year to SPM which the results will determine whether I'll be able to get into Exeter.

Fuck.

Like getting an A+ for BM is possible.

Ahhh... why did I waste my four years playing while the rest studied. Now, I'm doomed.
2 weeks to get History from an E to a B, accomplished.

less than 50 weeks to get everything to @least an A.

Ha.Ha.

I bet even Hermione says shit.

Which comes to this.
Birthday party.

Screw invites. I hate being the person who invites other people out of courtesy.
I invite once, rejected.
I ask again, declined.
I will shut up.

People should stop being so sensitive. Damn it.
For all I care, I just want Tome Felton to be with me on my birthday.

Sometimes, out of curiosity, I always ask myself, why I could never forget though I forgave a certain person.

And I found myself an answer.

When I stop forgiving someone, means I've stopped finding something to like inside that certain person.

Harry Potter Harry Potter Hah!

2010-11-05T09:22:00.000-07:00

This month is harry's month. R u excited?

Damn right shit merlin's beard i m!!!

With(s)& Without(s).

2010-10-25T01:15:00.000-07:00

With a keyboard& Internet access, anyone could start a blog.
Without brains& humor, it would have been better to remain it dead.

With a mouth, you can rant all you want.
Without a backbone, all I can hear is from others.

With great cheek bones, the camera will love you.
Without great metabolism, eat all you want just like how the camera, you.

With just a tiny bit of patience, I could stand the world.
Without that little pity I have for you, you would have been long gone.

With a smile, ten things can go right.
Without a frown, everything will go wrong as it is.

With the thousand words, the picture remain perfect.
Without manipulation, its as boring as it is.

With magic, there's Voldemort.
Without the Dark Lord, what's the use of Harry Potter?

With technology, we can laugh all we want.
Without nature, where are our teeth?

With the 31th coming, it's perfectly fine.
Without the end, what's there to look out for?

With the annoying brats, pathetic idiots and unattractive fags, there's always something to mock about.
Without these as entertainment, perhaps those blondes have to watch out.

Withs& withs.
Withouts& withouts.
I& I.
U& We.
Everyone's in this world.

Live with it...
Live without it...

Ego

2010-10-24T02:21:00.001-07:00

The bigger it is, the further you get.

That's, my belief.

Wouldn't deny, I love drama.

I love seeing people having a fight when the starter of it, is ridiculously stupid.

I love watching how people destroy each other's life with the fagged ways.

I love listening to insults, rants and anything related to reflect how shallow they are.

But, no. Not everyone is that humorous.

It takes 2 people to start a fight. Few friends around to sharpen their claws. And a whole crowd to increase attention. Commonly, someone from the crowd to end it.

Everyone likes to be the peace maker. Or mostly, the people desperately trying to get into the inner circle, supports both sides, get them to get along. And Ta-dahh! She's in.

I don't get how they are so...nicely...accepted.

They are the people who read famous bloggers, follow them on twitter and uses their quotes as their own. At least, admit where you seen it from.

So now, at least people are opening their eyes. They see who's the annoying spoilt brat.

It is true that everyone has their own taste, and they know what they want.